~WEREsandrock

moinsen!
Why does this dude who calls himself weresandrock annoy me with a totally meaningless journal entry... - that's what you're asking yourself while reading .. right? admit it!!!
nuh... why- good question... As you may have noticed, concerning submissions and so on I'm a lazy ass... - not really true you know?
The real reason is that I don't even get enough time to draw....- and that's NOT only because of school stuff...- That's just what I usually blame it on. -
The real reason is that there're some strange things happening in my life - Or things that have happened during the last year...

The propably most strange thing happened when our class went to london for a week...
I found it was pretty nice - except for one strange happening:
-but before I tell you this , you should know a few other things... bout me and so on...when I was ten I started at a socalled "gymnasium" (I know... in the US you guys don't have the same school types as we do - but to make it short- you go there 8 years, from the age of 10 to 18 ) - and that only dropped me into a class full of assholes, ready to bully anyone who's slightly different from them... only to make them feel strong.... and now guess who was the one bullied by them.... right... me... wasn't very nice of them to do this... for 1 1/2 years - that's until I dropped out because of my horrible marks - in english (!!!! can u imagine? reading fanfictions and so on improved my english at least to a point were I'm the best in class ..now) and in maths (as always..>_<"")... Then I switched school again, to a socalled "ÜHS" (= Übungs Hauptschule, normal school, for rather intelligent pupils with learning difficulties),... The beginning there (socially seen) was hard , but it got better and better... Many of my friends there were what is called a nerd... geek... or other insulting terms...just because they liked comics and anime...
I was there for about .. hm... let's say... 2 1/2 years.
At the same time, in the same grade as I was, in a different class, there was a dude u should remember for what this whole thing here is about....- a rather fat guy - As I was told later, the class he went to was "led" by three bullies... I knew them.... really aggressive assholes.... However... and that certain burly guy I told you to remember, he had lot's of problems with those bullies - one of what they supposedly said was to him was , just for example "If you keep looking at me like this I'm going to smash your fucking face you fag!"...
however...
When I finished ÜHS, I went to the Borg ( Bundes Oberstufen Real Gymnasium )- ANd guess who was in my class... ? The dude who was suppesdly bullied so often in the previous school.
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Now you may think that it's nice when 2 people who know what it means to be oppressed go to the same class.... think again.....
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Because he was probably scared about being harassed once more, that dude had nothing better to do than to agitate the whole class against me.... not only by telling lies.... all that's needed as a reason for a group to exclude somebody else, is, for exemple, the fact that I liked comics..... and oh shit.... You can't imagine how well that worked.... one thing I can remember was that they used to give me the nickname "nemo".... no idea why... 3 years later... and I still don't know.
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After that year, I went to another class...(main topic : informatic... I should've gone to the art class neh...)... And? guess who AGAIN was in the same class? It was the fat dude, once bullied, who later became a bully himself..(more or less)..
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And then the same thing... that asshole tried again to agitate the whole class against me.... did it work... no... luckily not....they left me alone for... the last 2 1/2 or 3 years ... but strongly started to doubt the fat guys sanity... - and silly me , believe it or not, had sympaphy with the burly guy.. - oh... believe it or not... he admited all of his past actions... oh and he's so sorry and... shit like that

now, just a few months/ weeks ago, our class was to london... - and I finally foundcourage to speak to other people of my class ( why is courage needed to speak to somebody?, my feel-good-doctor calls this social phobia :insane: )
But when my fat friend here saw that I was talking to other people, he again tried to make me look stupid by insulting me in front of the whole class, not that the rest of them reacted to this in any way....- but this time I had enough.
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Now imagine yourself in that situation - being harassed for years without EVER getting the chance to do something in return, NEVER getting the chance to paid them back for what they were doing..... can you imagine how much aggression stored up inside of me?....- and you know whos the reason for all of this...?
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I saw the dude standing outside , I went out and told him in a very harsh wy, what I would've liked to do with him....."rip his face off of his fucking skull "etc... - for short: threatining him with things, I don't even know how to express that in english ...
Of course that dude played drama queen , went to the teacher and preached that he's so incredible scared now .
Of course the teachers believed his pleading and whining.... making a fuss about how to keep us seperate for the rest of the week...
My action was also followed by a visit to the school's headmaster... - I'm not allowed to tell details of this meetings - we swore that, all people that were aboard .... and I respect that...the fat guy didn't ..- after 2weeks the whole class knew it -_-" his problem that they were in favor of me XD... (zitat:" why did you just threaten him, ? why didn't you just do it?? "- not very nice either to say such things.... even if it's no offense to me)


-> ..finito
now .... of course you might think of me as a psychopath - not so wrong - all these years full of harassment made me kinda go crazy....- But if you imagine storing up your aggression for years... you might understand....- people who know me , do so.


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why do I tell you this?
I thought a long time about whether to write this or not - It might sound as If I'm drowning in self-pity...- I'm not - And neither do I want to have your sympaphy -
All I was thinking about is one thing... I've got 140 watchers on dev. art.... some of them keep telling me that I'm so great , and my pics are so kick ass and so on - Of course I love to read stuff like that.... good for my ego this is XD... but one thing about this bothers me - do you even know to whom you say this ?
I started asking myself If maybe some of the people here , who tell me such things, are similar to the bullies I had to deal with... I mentioned this kind of thought in some forum... some said that I'm thinking too much about things like that... others said that it's my right to worry about such things ... well - and this is what I'm doing here...:


If you, whoever reads this, would be ready to beat somebody for no reason... or harass somebody who.... looks different from you or... who has other interests than you have or whatever.... do not watch me... do not tell me that my pics are great...don't even fave them.... because I might be the "fag" you've beaten up yesterday.

so... enough with the bad memories, that's gone now... you know why I've written this... and that's it XD
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let's go on with the art stuff... the thing I'm here for XDDDDD
next will be the finished version of my gatling wolf (yep... MY wolf! IT'S MIIIINE XDDD)
I'm also working on a group picture of full armor sandrock GC and some of the Maganac MS....
oh... and I've also got a picture of the beast from Xmen... fully finished... but I don't know whether to upload it or not ... it's not so good... and a few SD gundam doodles (knight Hyaku- shiki XDDDD).. and musha sandrock aka. yaibamaru.. and I still ow a double zeta gundam to somebody ... neh?


with friendly greetings
your insane, murderous sandrock wannabe



(edit: now somehow this looks incredible strange O_O" however... more of this stuff... it looks awesome XP)